I am really going slightly mad right now. All I can think about is population pyramids, birth rates, death rates and all the retarded factors relating to that. Its just eating me up, I have to really stop doing this when I get burned out. I just dont have the time no more.
High Birth Rate: - No Contraceptives - Lack of education on family planning - more children in a bid to ensure that at least some will survive to take care of the retarded farm - Culture to have boys so they keep giving birth till they get a retarded boy. GIRLS ARE EQUALLY COOL OKAY. gosh so sexist. - I cannot remember anymore.
Okay that was quite boring, my head is a buzz so I need to do some random pointless quiz to make it feel normal.
———-Have You Ever——— 1. Been so drunk you blacked out: No 2. Missed school coz it was raining: Nope 3. Put a body part on fire for amusement: Yep 4. Been hurt emotionally: Yup 5. Kept a secret from everyone: Yes 6. Had an imaginary friend: Yes, its name was dinky 7. Cried during a Movie: Yea 8. Had a crush on a teacher: Hell No 9. Ever thought an animated character was fit?: WOLVERINE! 10. Been on stage: yeeaa 11. Cut your own hair?: NEVER EVER considered it. EVER ————Favourites————– 12. Colour[s]: white&black Day/Night: Day, I like the sun 14. Summer/Winter: Winter, its the novelty of snow. 15.Cartoon Character: SPONGEBOB, PATRICK, TIMMY TURNER! 16. Fave Food: Italian. 17. Fave Advert: The dove one. "I can see your TRUE COLOURS shining though..." or The Nokia one. 18. Fave Ice Cream: ISLAND CREMERY BANANA/ BEN&JERRYS COOKIE DOUGH 19. Fave Subject: uh, Bio? 20. Fave Persons to talk to: My imaginary friend. 21. Fave Actor/Actress: No idea whats so every ————Right now————– 22.Wearing: Red Bule T-shirt + Paul Frank Pyjamas Pants 23. my hair is: brownish black 24. feeling: Kinda of Screamo, slighty physcothic. (hahahah) 25. Eating: Air 26. Drinking: my own saliva 27. Thinking about: Population Pyramids 28. cried: On Saturday, laughing waayyyy to hard 29..Worn a skirt: Last, last year? 30. Met someone new: December Camp? 31. Cleaned your room: when I am forced to 32. Done laundry: Missions. 33. Drove a car: D-A-Y-T-O-N-A ————–DO YOU BELIEVE IN———— 34. Yourself: YYEEAA 35. Your friends: 'Cept those sneakkyyy ones (shifty eyes) 36. Santa claus: Fat dude with a beard? maybe 37. Tooth Fairy: oohhh free money 38. Angels: YUP :D 39. Devils: EEEYYUUUR EEVVIIILLL but yea 40. UFO’s: Ultra Freaky Otters, yea I believe in them —————–FRIENDS AND LIFE—————- 41. Like anyone?: YES! My mummy, my daddy, magic etc etc 42. Who’s the loudest: loudest? 43. Who’s the weirdest: people call me weird :/ 44. Who do you go to for advice: My imagingary friend. Okay not really 45. Who do you cry to? my pillow 46. When did you cry the most: When I laugh 47. Worst feeling? When I cant find God 48. Who do u like? My Imaginary Friend
My emo shizzles, makes me out to sound like some attention deprived kid, which I dont exactly want to be. But, I think even when I am feeling really strangely emo, I dont really sound it. Its complicated I suppose. I dont like people freaking out all because I am feeling down or any shit like that. Its not fair, but its fun to whine along with each other. (ahem chloe) I am freaking out because so many of my family memebers are in Hospital, its really freaky. All blood related issues, kind of makes you think about how fragil life is, like this itsy-bitsy inbalance and everything is just really screwed up. So they are stuck in hospital unable to go anywhere. I sort of makes you value freedom too, the ability to go whereever you want (to a certain extent) is really a previlage. What do I do with it? Run around and do pointless things Okay I dont really know what I am talking about no more. I have no idea but my mind feels like a jumbled up junk yard of thoughts that I cannot seem to string together. Nothing seems to be linking up, kind of like I am running around in circles before banging into a wall. Its just a strange feeling I am having now, like your stuck in a rut and when you get up, someone comes along and pushes you back in. This on going thing, which never seems to want to end. 'Becky Stay down there, its where you belong' Yea, maybe I will stay there, its tiring trying to get up all the time. Push me back and forth, telling me that I SHOULD do this or that. I am sorry but I do not always know the answers. I wish I could just forget it all. Because I really do not know what to do. PHYSICS PRAC TOMORROW IS THE BANE OF MY EXSISTENCE.
Last night I had a really sweet dream. Because You were in it.